Thursday, August 12, 2010

The month of 'friend' is coming soon..

this month many worse matter happaned for example, my assignment always not improve still in a same standard,all my classmate improving their skill and knowledge day by day, but for me i still not done good enough. I felt not comfortable when i face infront of my mother because before that i promised my mum said i will not disapointed for her. When my mum came from the work i feel sorry for her, what can i do now? My direction not clear at all, my exam for this semester 4 is start from 1st of september. Moreover my internship also start in the same date. Haiz...difficult can get a good result in the examination. I haven prepare enough to take this examination, i lost my confident and direction during normal class.

In the same time i feel i also lost contact with my secondary school fren and my relationship between old fren and new fren at a diminishing. The second matter problem face to me right now is my BF. He also not good at all in this year and the last year. THis year he have trouble of his car accident, money, relationship between him and parent and family member. I wan try to calme down him but i not able to help hime solve the problem. SO i feel very apologize for him. Sorry dear made u more trouble on ur 'head' and ur Mind.

As i know the rate of death in the past year on this month also happened some terrible thing. Ofcourse i dunno wheather is some kind of thing made it or just we extra feeling? we are dunno.

My fren BEE WANN birthday on 23/8/2010, how can i celebrate with her? i dunno, that day is 14/7/2010 so i scare. Maybe i done A bad thing for others so the feeling always worse...sometime they celebrate with others also no invite me in the time i really feel not happy and more lonely than normal day. is me attitude problem or not gain the heart of fren that why i will feel alone when i stay in the house during a specific time for celebrate some time. Maybe is true my attitude problem become the fren avoid from me. i wan leave from here, i really cannot stay without any excited life. I still remember the last year no people with my fren remember my birth...who are invite me to watc movie is it just because the timing problem. Without any wish and present from my fren it is mean i lost my fren and my life start become dark..

Dear i really miss u ,but when i meet u i will arguing with u, i'm not qualification become ur girl fren and i also no suitable for u. Even i have a certificate but i dunno become a right human. Alternative btw right and wrong infront of me i still dunno how to choose...Is me think a lot or i just get stuborn a while? today u write something in the wall make me feel i not enough take care for u. Can i leave u without inform u? can i just make a selfish decision? hurt someone i also not feel better than u, the brave to hurt someone is difficult, hurt ur beloved is more hurt then u...i willing do anything u want, but i also have a greater protection surrounding me. I cannot reach the goal i set before, i give up!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

consideration day....

Some time i ask myself why i will live in here..for what? who?
Have people said live for life, live for learn somthing, live for waiting die...and so on!

In different people think differently opinion or idea..that why a lot of people can built the different cultural and perception in their own personality...today i learn the principle of marketing in the class, but today not learn theory of Marketing but she try give some test for us which is Market Itself. My class start discuss what is Market Itself in real mean..unfortunely nobody know...that just a simple game it is identified what kind by myself...we start the "game".

The funny thing i know is some of my classmate draw the same item or object...such as like Rebeka, she draw a turtle and the other guy also draw the similar object...haha

My one is a "lalat" and becaome a ...secret..hehe
this item i take time to think is the suitable component for me...because the meaning in what i'm drawing in reflect my whole life. The personality of myself not really sure but the first view in my mind is that once...it can reflect me as a lazy girl and always relies on my parent what i should to right now is contribut something when i growth up.

The truth is I hate study, because i want attract my parent and others i'm starting harworking study and satified by my parent...what i like is normal life...i dun want my parent earn money for me I wan try indepandent...so i believe in one day i will go foreign country work and study for my family...hope can contribut for them...

This is my backside story, about the paper....

Finally the class is over and we leave.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

May 13

Today is the lonely day...

I think today i have some activity in this night bacause of someone can't go so the activity delay and cancel...have a good opportunity give me buy and book the ticket but i also not willing go it.
Who can give me advise what should i do now? The man have ability to change my life but the main decision is by my own...money and love! how to choose...if a person who are really think deeply, this question is quit difficult.May be is my own personality is complicated.

Everytime when i feel not comfortable i will headached..i'm get fever...

Monday, May 10, 2010

My first holiday (monday)

Yesterday is mother day. Many people have celebrate with mothers and present it for her..anyway i want wish here all the mother have a nice day at that mothers day.

After the happy moment i would like to share my holiday session plan...
my fren just finish the holiday but now is turn from me get rest in this two week.
The planned set from him is go genting 3 day 2 night. Today I start felt not normal such like missing the heart from here, i try to have bacjk but still fall in trouble. Nobody can open my mind. Sadly, Hopeless, Worry nothing, etc.

However i told someone but still can;t express the real feeling. I scared..and helpless, this the first day holiday i dun want keep going with this feeling..

Saturday, February 27, 2010

END OF Chinese Ney Year & Valetine day

Gong Xi Fa Cai

this word all of pupil will speak to wish each and other have a good well in the whole year...
So..today i need shared my story about this New Year event with all of my fren.

What happened in the new yaer? haha...the happy thing is can get ang pao from elder people. The others is...can celebrate valetine day with beloved. Guess..the present is ? just is the simple and increadible thing, which is flowers with the chocolate. it have 27 of flowers with chocolate! Dun think just 27 flowers no meaning, we can think properly tht is a deemed meaning compare with jewerelly and money...tht is
1 3 1 4 mean. First of all, i'll make solution how get the 1 3 1 4 mean. 1+1=2 and 3+4= 7

Izit so sweet...hehe
i wish here all of my fren have a happy chinese new year and amazing valetine day at2010....Lovee U all and all the best@.@

Friday, January 22, 2010

Feeling of yesterday

Yesterday i went back office for continous my uncomplete work. That day is my best fren birthday date, normally i hope can celebrate with her but she never pick my call so the party is gone away...just can say happy birthday in this blog..happy birthday my fren (carrie). I think she not hopefully i will wish her like this style, but no choice. Today need make final decision, what decision?. Why i would say like this just is because last week my dear promise me this is end of time to clubbing.

I hope he not same as the old BF once agaist the promise, i really can't forgive them if this situation will happen again.But yesterday night i argua with him again, if i wrong I would like to say sorry dear. By the way, i also will control my emotion.
Happy duration is not long, we can just keep in our memory when the happy happened.Can't catch and stop it.

My dear GOD pls bless my fren happy 4 ever and hope less venture in their life...I will take my live time or my age to exchange the happy time gift for them.Love u all 4 ever!!!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Shopping centre trip

Yesterday I with my boy and Wan Ling went to Sunway Piramid, abd Mid Velly.
Situation at Sunway Piramid- When we arrived there we seem a huge piramid and people who are prepared the festival of Chinese New Year coming soon. Inside have a lot of people shopping, maybe that day is public holidya (SUNDAY).

We have gone to bowling played. This is a 1st time play bowling in Sunway Piramid, but the truth is not funny compared with Mid Velly bowling centre there. I most prefer to Mid velly or TS. last saturday I play bowling with my boy and his fren on Saturday, the result is unpredicable highest in my life.haha.....just 94 mark.Of course this game have some motivation which is we play in couple and who lose the game should buy cup of drink for who the winner.

Finally, we are won in 159+94 equal 253. I know for professional bowling player is normal result, but for thr new player this are the started to get more higher mark.Otherwise, we are challeged Wan Ling to play the bowling, sure like her attitude sure will deal with us, and the final result is she lose.haha....

After we take the break with lunch(burger King) we have talk a lot about the old memory which is...secret! Sorry...can't wrote the privacy event. DUN LOOK BACK FOR PAST TENCE, WE NEED LOOK THE FUTURE.

When we finish our lunch we gone to MID VELLY continuous our game, haha...but this time winner turn on to me. I dunno is whether my dear belong to me or something I can felt have a power to support me and push me dun ever easy to give up. Now I would like to thank to my dear (Kelvin) I love u 4 ever.